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Sooooo… the end of 2007 sucked in terms of weight gain!  Or rather, it ROCKED in terms of weight gain, cause I gained about 8 lbs since September.  Hot damn.

 Travel, my birthday, my son’s birthday, thanksgiving, a 4-day cruise, three holiday parties, countless egg nog martinis, christmas, new year’s, catching up with friends … Yeah, I’m surprised it was only 8 lbs.

Lots and lots and lots of work to do to catch up with where i want to be … 30lbs lighter, but let’s be realistic.  If i lose 15 lbs this year, I will be thrilled.  Time to hit the gym.  Will have to start on Jan 14th (super duper work overload until then, just super work overload).  I can do it, i can do it, like the little train that could, i can do it.

It only took me four weeks to lose 2 lbs, but you know what, I’ll take it.  Shoot, if I lose two pounds a month for the next ten months, I’ll be at a decent place in my life.  Granted, I’d rather it not take so long, but it’s better than nothing.  And imagine if I wasn’t working out - ten months from now, I would still be where I am, and wishing that maybe I had worked out a little bit.

 My theory on the slow start?  Fat burning v. Cardiovascular exercise.  My brother, a self-proclaimed fitness freak, pushed me to concentrate on fat burning excersizes.  Exercize.  Exersize.  Excercize.  How the hell do you spell that word?  Exercise.  I think that’s it.  Exercises.  Yes, that looks right.  Anyway, once I stopped listening to him and including more cardio in my life, that kickstarted my weight loss.  Although I am just so so so so swamped these days.

 Having a toddler and trying to work out at least 3x/week is really, really rough! 

Really, really trying.  I’ve been working out 3x/week minimum and keeping my “Net Calorie Balance” at an average of -500 day (BuddySlim gave me a goal of -250 to -750 a day) … Yet … The scale is not budging.

The hub unit says I look like I lost weight, but I don’t feel it.

I think I need to forget what the Net Calorie Balance says on BuddySlim and just go back to eating about 1400-1500 calories a day.  It was skewed, IMO, on the days when I exercised and lost 300 calories, and it still gave me a balance of -500.  I was looking at that, instead of the calories going in.  So … new rule for me - just look at the cals going in and no more than 1499 a day. 

(And it’s fine for my height and weight - I had followed that regimen before I got pregnant and it worked fantastic.  I just need to lose these last 20 lbs that hung on from the pregnancy.)  *sigh*

… But I’m a believer!  Yeah yeah yeah yeah.  To quote the Monkees in my title and blog, yes, I am a believer.

 I weighed myself the other day.  Exact same weight as when I started my lifestyle choices.  Been to the gym 5 times, ate better, drank more water. Same. Damn. Weight.  Oh well, I’m going to attribute it to drinking more water.  “It’s all water weight.”  That’s my answer to everything!  “acb, why are your files not correct?” “It’s all water weight!”

But anyway, I’ll still soldier on. Clothes fit exactly the same. I know it takes a while, but I would have hoped that after nearly 2 weeks straight of “doing things (mostly) right” that I would have seen some sort of result. Somewhere. Oh well. I’ll be ok.

My goal for the month of July.  To fit into a pair of shorts that I bought (on sale, whoo hoo) before they go out of style.  They are black bermuda/capri type shorts, in a kind of khaki/dress-pant material.  I bought them a size too small, which is actually the size I was a couple of months ago.  Grrrr.  Gaining weight sucks.  (When you don’t want to.)

 Also, I think, with a pretty realistic and tangible goal, it’ll be a bit more of a motivator to try to lose weight. I’m thisclose to fitting in it, as opposed to the red pants hanging on the door of my closet that I’m a good four sizes away from.

 Soooo, today after my 3:30 p.m. call, I’m going to race home, be there by 4, change into workout gear, then head to the gym by 4:05, get there by 4:25, workout for 35 minutes on the elliptical, leave by 5:02.  Then pick up my boy by 5:20.  As much as I want to spend time with him and hang out, he does have fun @ the day care in the afternoon playing on the outside equipment there, so he’ll be fine.  Plus, 5:20 is early these days. Work’s been preventing us from bringing him home til at least 5:30. 

So that’s my story and I’m sticking to it.  Will let you know this w/e or Monday how it all went down.

I went. That is all.

Trying to muster up enough energy to get my (fat)ass to the gym this afternoon. It’s a rather slow day at work and I can actually be productive during lunch hour and go to the gym.  I need to take advantage of being able to work from home sometimes.  So I think I’m going to go.  Fingers crossed, wish me luck.  If i’m not outta here by 12:45, i’ll never leave.